I moved not Him.- Part 4

Turning point.

As for now all seemed fine & well and I was very happy and relaxed as Peehu was fine, without acknowledging that the turning point in my life was still to come.

Three days later Mr. Ghai came home again to meet me and for obvious reasons I thought he had come for his money, but I was wrong. What he confronted in front of me that day changed my whole perspective.

As we sat on the sofa in drawing room for coffee he started.

Mr. Ghai: I am really sorry I didn’t come to meet you and your family when your father died.

Me: It’s OK uncle but any specific reason for not doing so?

Mr. Ghai: H mm, but before I tell you the reason I would like to tell you something else which your father always used to say and wished.

Me: My father wished… what?

Mr. Ghai: Your father was a very kind hearted and amiable person, always doing and wishing better for others. But he wished one thing for himself also, and it was that he would like to take his last breath helping someone in need. I don’t know whether he ever told it to you or not but he mentioned it to me many times that he always asked God in his prayers that whenever the time comes when he had to leave this world and go he may go making someone Else's life easier and happier.

As God was always with him, loved him and blessed him, He even fulfilled his wish.

Me: God granted his wish? How? He died of an accident.

Mr. Ghai: Yes God did! Your father saved a life of a small child while giving his own. It was none other than my granddaughter whom he saved. I am talking about Shweeta. She was with me on that fateful day when your father left home for sweets shop. Shweeta and I were about to cross the road to go to an ice-cream parlor when I met your father. As I was talking to him he suddenly pushed me aside and ran towards Shweeta in the middle of the road. I don’t know how she got there. He pushed Shweeta away and himself came under the car coming from the other end. After that whatever happened is known to all. He left all of us in the hospital.

Me: His words came as a dose of bitter medicine which was hard to swallow. What? Father died saving Shweeta? And you are telling me all this now after two years of his death? How could you do this uncle? Why didn’t you tell me about this earlier? You don’t know unknowingly you have made me make a big mistake. The earlier I would have known the better it would have been.

Mr. Ghai: I was really afraid and didn’t know how I would face you and your family. After all he died saving my granddaughter. Though I got Shweeta back from the hands of death, I lost my dear friend. But deep inside I always had that guilt feeling. Every morning I thought if and if I could save your father … My conscious always used to ask me to come and tell you everything but I think the fear overrode it all the time. Today I have somehow gained courage to tell you everything and that’s why I was here. Please forgive me if you can.

He was grieved & his eyes couldn't’ meet mine. He went away after that.

Now every thing was as clear as water. ( Mr.Ghai made me remember about father's wish which even i knew. Father always said his birth in this world would be worth if his life was used for others and wished he may die helping someone. But this thought never came to my mind all
these years, not even for once and i needlessly blamed God for everything. How could i do it? )
I wasn’t angry with Mr.Ghai nor did I say anything to him. But I had one grouch against him, he took so long to speak up, it would have been better if he would have told me all this earlier because he didn’t know whom I have lost since last two years apart from my father and who was as important to me as my father and whose friendship was everything for me at one time. What a blunder I had made? Now I knew what God wanted to tell me that night and why did He say that my father changed his destiny for himself and got what he had wished.

A thought also crossed my mind that why did God take so much of time in letting me know all this? Why didn’t He make me realize my mistake early? And answer to this also came very soon to me as I realized that I myself was responsible even for this. I broke with God after my father’s death & stopped talking to Him, stopped praying to Him and even stopped asking Him for things and favors. Yes I know I might be selfish in saying that but it’s true that I used to ask God for something or the other all the time and my wishes were granted too. May be for the first time when God didn’t give what I wanted & that too for my father’s sake made me speak wrathfully to Him. I myself asked Him to go and never intervene in my life than how could he? He didn’t revert to my decision. But when in hospital I suddenly asked Him for help though not intentionally He immediately came for rescue as He always used to in some or the other form. I forgot God always helps when in need through His channels. (God saved Shweeta through my father & Peehu through Mr. Ghai. ) but the only thing is we should believe in Him sincerely and let Him do the things His way. Today if I have Peehu with me it’s because of His grace& blessings.

Now I again want to extend my hand of friendship to God. I am sorry for all that what happened in the past & I hope God will forget me for my doing.

God you have always been my best buddy though I forgot this in the past, but you didn’t. You remained with me all the time & I am grateful to you for this.